Rough Day

Do you ever feel like everyone hates you? That’s how I feel today. My day was going great up until my boss came by my desk with a bad attitude. I could just sense it was directed towards me. I don’t get it. SHe is so pleasant and nice to everyone else, but when she talks to me I just get the feeling like she is annoyed by me. I made an error over a month ago and I am taking the proper precautions to assure it doesn’t happen again, I’m only human. I don’t know what i did or what I am doing. It just enrages my eating disorder, it is another excuse for it to come out and play. My ED thrives on negative energy, and right now it wants me to eat a whole bunch of "bad" food and throw it up. I haven’t had a feeling of purging this strong in months. Even if I don’t eat a bunch of bad food I still feel like I want to vomit. I don’t get it, this feeling is horrid. Throwing up won’t solve anything, it wont’ make anything better, it won’t help me get better in my career and it won’t remove the tension between me and my boss. I want to cry but I don’t feel I have enough reason to. I’m a grown woman, I can handle this…right? This sucks.